It’s not easy.  This whole wedding photography business thingy.

I used to think that nothing is much harder compared to attending to dying patients or confronting clueless relatives and telling them that it’s going to be okay, when we all know death is inevitable.

That was my life back then.

Last year, I was that person.  My world was constantly occupied with hospital duties, medications, endorsements, patients, and the obsession to go abroad.  I was always on the look out for opportunities.  My waking hours were spent counting my actions.  I have to do this because I need working hours.  I have to impress this person because I might need his recommendation. I have to report for duty because I just need to.  It was all-mechanical.

Still, I found meaning in what I did. That I am very sure! Once a nurse, always a nurse.  It might not apply to all, but it sure does apply to me. I so miss it! I ache!

But fate brought me to a different path.  So much different from that world.

I became a photographer.  As they say, I shoot people for a living.  I say it’s not easy.  Every wedding is different. I mean it involves creativity, equipment upgrades, sales talk, long nights of editing, and so much more.

However, my feelings for both – being a nurse and a photographer, are more or less equal.  If these were people, I’d tell them everyday, I love you both.  I hope they’ll tell me I love you more back.

So yeah, even if I miss being a nurse, I am still happy shooting away.  Perhaps, one day, I will be doing both.  Who knows?  The possibilities are endless.

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July 14, 2011
You will... have faith mai --- and i feel the same way too, though at times i do feel burnt out in the medical field when things get rough (2x a week 12hr night shift i think is good enough for me... if i can get day position 3 days is workable)... Photography on the other hand balance it out for me, it's like my therapy at the end of the day --- not sure about wedding though, 2nd shooter i think i can handle =)
    July 15, 2011
    Hi Cinds, we are baliktan. You get to practice your profession while doing photography on the side. I, on the other hand, can't practice just yet and my time is spent taking pictures. I'm looking for that balance. I don't know why I feel this way. Maybe I really miss being a nurse. Longing for it. I'm happy with what I am doing, but I think I can be happier.
chichi
July 15, 2011
mai, i know it will happen. wala pa kay gi wish nga wala ni happen for you. mo abot ra lagi na imong nurse dream.
    July 16, 2011
    Hi Chi..glad to find you here. Oh well! If there's one person who knows very well about my NZ frustration, it's you. Been awhile already -- cap hunting.
July 16, 2011
Oh, Mai. Looking at your gorgeous pictures, I can't seem to imagine you doing anything else. I know we're not close and I have no idea how it goes with your nursing career, but your pictures give me the impression that you should keep doing this because you are so good at it, you have a gift. Good luck with this, I do hope you get to do both if that's what your heart tells you to do. I'm leaving a stable, well-paying job to try a career in makeup artistry, specifically bridal. It's scaring the shit out of me, to be honest. I will have a freelancer's income, and I will have to start at the very bottom. I wish I find success in the wedding industry as you did, I really want to do this.
    July 16, 2011
    I have a feeling Dea you'll succeed in the make up world -- bridal. I have a friend who also resigned and followed her heart. She's now a freelance make up artist and busier than ever. Who knows one day we will get to work together.
July 20, 2011
Someday soon you will find yourself in both worlds Maimai san, doing what you love best. Just always remember, the Universe is kind to you and for sure your dreams of doing both your passion will also come true.
    July 21, 2011
    someday Jen...

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